Wow. It's been ages. I'm sad to say I forgot I even had this. My life has been so insane that my poor mind has exploded. Prom, boyfriend, stalker friend/not friend, Otakon, college info, no college, almost getting kicked out, and now not sleeping. Aint life grand?

I don't feel like typing out everything thats happened but I will say that my views on the world have twisted even more. I saw sides of people that I didn't even know existed. My faith in humanity, little as it was, has dropped so much that a part of me is hoping that the world ends 2012. Our race has fudged up the gift we were given to epic proportions.

Still, the larger part of me is thankful to be alive and doesn't want that to change. As pita the last couple months have been I wouldn't change them for the world. That would mean giving up my heart and that is just not gonna happen. I will deal with the hell that my life is at the moment as long as I have him by my side. My love. My puppy.

And no he isn't a real puppy. Please, I'm not that crazy. Most of the time. I just named my boyfriend Puppy because he can't sit still and dances when he's happy. He makes me happier than I have ever been in my whole life. He's kept me sane (or as sane as I'll ever be) these past months.

Unfortunetly he goes to a college that is 3 hours away from me. We hate it but we're dealing. He's home for fall break at the moment and on Tuesday I go back with him for a couple days. Still surprised that my mom agreed to it. I think someone slipped crack in her food. I gotta find them and thank them. And ask them where I can get some more. That was the nicest she's been in 2 months. She wasn't even yelling.

She's yelling now. apparently I didn't do my chores right and must now wash the dishes again.

Oh the joys of being a slave.

And she wonders why I haven't painted anything in a while.